When a Child is Taught to Hate: My Version of the Alicia Story, Part 2
“That’s not despair you’re feeling, it’s the petulant reaction of a wounded child And that’s not the door I’m looking at, it’s an escape hatch to the…
Growing Up Jeub
When A Child is Taught to Hate: My Version of the Alicia Story, Part 1
“I’ve been trying to justify you In the end, I will just defy you.” -Dream Theater, ‘Honor Thy Father’ It started with fights, and I’d never heard my…
The Love Label
“Don’t give me love, don’t give me faith Wisdom nor pride, give innocence instead Don’t give me love, I’ve had my share Beauty nor rest, give me truth…
Appreciating the Ride
Note from April 9, 2021: This post was first published on October 27, 2014. I just found it this morning among my unpublished drafts, and decided to w…
'I’m Sorry You Lost Your Kids.’
“On prie pour sauver les apparences (To save someone from losing his appearance) Par moment oublier toutes les distances (In this moment you have to l…
Of Course It Wasn’t All Bad
“I want to become brave and courageous Not buried in self-pity of my own Ashamed and alone from all That’s been done to me It’s not my fault, I remind…
How a Logical Girl Talked Herself into Fundamentalism, Part 3
This is the third and final part of a series. Click here to read from the beginning, or here to go to part 2. Trigger warning: child abuse “Icy road…
How a Logical Girl Talked Herself into Fundamentalism, Part 2
Trigger warnings: child abuse “I could fight this, but I may die. And all I want is [to] be the apple in your eye Well I could stay here, strap on my…
How a Logical Girl Talked Herself into Fundamentalism, Part 1
“Do not look down Or the abysmal beast of non-conformity Might stare some unpleasant truth Into your desensitized mind.” -Meshuggah It was in April 2…