Winter Freeze
The Body Keeps the Score This happens every winter - my writing slows down, I sink into existential depression, and I feel like I don't deserve a…
Psychology and mental illness
The Devastation of Lost Faith
"I lay in a bed of resistance Chained to either side I really wish I could, reset, rewind Someone has clawed out my eyes I don't know what t…
Dear Anxiety
“Trapped in a cold white room I want to know, who'll be there when you snuff the wick? I won't reflect the same as you I want the proof you…
When God Spoke to Me
"Descartes invoked God - in this case, a literal deus ex machina - to save himself...When people run up against something inexplicable, transcend…
Cultivating Intelligent Disobedience
“Loyal dogs, unfailing tool They do what they have been trained to With the eidolons, the minds are full The evil ghosts of old The evil ghosts of old…
What Happened
Content warnings: gaslighting, child abuse, mental illness, suicide, eating disorders, poverty Now is as good a time as any to explain why exactly my…
Depression Meals and Food Recovery
Content warning: eating disorders, food trauma, depression The subject of nutritional abuse is one that I've found difficult to talk about for a…
Podcast Transcript: The Deleted Confession
Updated 5/6/2019: Below is a commentary I wrote in August 2018 about the events leading up to my family's first response to my blog posts in 2014,…
Cheaper by the Proxy: Why the Majority of Abuse Victims Don't Escape
"A dancing puppet doll made of wood I bet he'd run away one day if he could choose to leave or stay He's got a string attached to every b…