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Winter Freeze

The Body Keeps the Score This happens every winter - my writing slows down, I sink into existential depression, and I feel like I don't deserve any of the good things that happen to me, while fighting to get through necessary appointments and tasks, and I fall deep into therapy, letting my emotional...

The Devastation of Lost Faith

"I lay in a bed of resistance Chained to either side I really wish I could, reset, rewind Someone has clawed out my eyes I don't know what they told you But this place is not what you think Living inside a hole, they put me underground Where they could never find...

Dear Anxiety

“Trapped in a cold white room I want to know, who'll be there when you snuff the wick? I won't reflect the same as you I want the proof you'll promise to let 'em down quick. I never want to see clear at all There's nothing...

When God Spoke to Me

"Descartes invoked God - in this case, a literal deus ex machina - to save himself...When people run up against something inexplicable, transcendent, and, most of all, ineffable, they often call it 'God,' as if that were some sort of explanation." –Barbara Ehrenreich "If you withhold information from your...

Cultivating Intelligent Disobedience

“Loyal dogs, unfailing tool They do what they have been trained to With the eidolons, the minds are full The evil ghosts of old The evil ghosts of old Insanity turns back at last As soon as their food is done And dog will raven dog The claws crush bones, the claws crush bones Claws...

What Happened

Content warnings: gaslighting, child abuse, mental illness, suicide, eating disorders, poverty Now is as good a time as any to explain why exactly my blog was so choppy over the past four years. I don't trust people like I used to. I don't believe the world is full of sunshine and...